…is that when you get them, you usually want to think about what you’re going to say when you call back. So you think, and the day ends, and night comes, and…well…you don’t want to interrupt their evening. So the next day comes.
But then you don’t get to it the next day, and at the end of the day you realize this, and realize that it’s been quite a while since they called. You feel bad about it and put it out of your mind.
Then the next day you realize it’s been too long since they left their message, and you feel uncomfortable about talking to them now. And the days go on.
That’s the thing about phone calls. And the thing about emails. And (have you figured out the theme of this post yet?) the thing about blogging.
In fact, funny story: I haven’t posted anything on Facebook for about a month simply because I feel so incredibly guilty about messages sent A MONTH ago, and I don’t want the people to think I read their messages yet. I don’t want them to feel hurt.
Wow! That’s chronic anxiety alright.
So, why am I posting this? Well, I’m mostly riding the wave of inspiration, taking the incredibly rare opportunity in which I feel like saying something, and doing something with it before it goes away and the guilt returns. I’ve been waiting on posting anything until I had a nugget of goodness to write.
But nothing has come, so I decided to write about that.
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This has always been one of the most annoying/stupid behaviours that I do. I’ll actually get stressed out about the anxiety of not having done whatever tiny task it is that I should have done, and yet I just can’t seem to push myself to do it.
A few times it’s actually blown up into really big issues, such that I can still remember and regret my inaction to this day.
I thought I was the only one with this flaw :p.
Perhaps we need a support group? Some way to give each other reality checks?
Wow i think this way too.. Like you just wrote a blog about one of the thought processes in my head.. This was one of the reasons why I deleted facebook, another reason why i deleted it would be the hatred of pretentiousness i see in it (even though using the word pretentious makes the user look pretentious) (and also i can be pretentious myself).
hahaha, write more posts like this, i find these fascinating..
This sort of reminds me of a Seinfeld episode. They start talking about returning phone calls and throughout the episode this figures predominately in the story line. Good stuff.