I wrote this piece for “Poetry Day” at my improv class. It certainly helped me relax into the group. Enjoy!
I used to be
The one that was loud
Wore clothes that would sparkle
Stood out from the crowd
I used to be
The one that would share
His entire life story
To whoever cared
Mine used to be
The first voice you would hear
Now I am silent
Overtaken by fear
And nobody knows
Who I used to be
So flamboyant, so wild,
Some called me a she!
What’s so different now?
What’s happened what’s changed?
I’m calmer? More peaceful?
My demons are tamed?
No that’s really not it
I promise there’s more
My mom died you see
Who I really adored
Cancer came in the night
Infected her lungs
And 6 months ago
Her suffering was done
The pain was expected
But by me the least
Now with antidepressants
The pain has decreased
Still Tuesday and Thursday
When I come to class
My breathe becomes shallow
My heart beats too fast
Now I hope that soon
All will be how it was
Life will be a stage
I’ll remember that buzz
And if nohing changes
Don’t know what I’ll do
Guess all that I can
Is keep talking to you.
