…is that when you get them, you usually want to think about what you’re going to say when you call back. So you think, and the day ends, and night comes, and…well…you don’t want to interrupt their evening. So the next day comes.

But then you don’t get to it the next day, and at the end of the day you realize this, and realize that it’s been quite a while since they called. You feel bad about it and put it out of your mind.

Then the next day you realize it’s been too long since they left their message, and you feel uncomfortable about talking to them now. And the days go on.

That’s the thing about phone calls. And the thing about emails. And (have you figured out the theme of this post yet?) the thing about blogging.

In fact, funny story: I haven’t posted anything on Facebook for about a month simply because I feel so incredibly guilty about messages sent A MONTH ago, and I don’t want the people to think I read their messages yet. I don’t want them to feel hurt.

Wow! That’s chronic anxiety alright.

So, why am I posting this? Well, I’m mostly riding the wave of inspiration, taking the incredibly rare opportunity in which I feel like saying something, and doing something with it before it goes away and the guilt returns. I’ve been waiting on posting anything until I had a nugget of goodness to write.

But nothing has come, so I decided to write about that.

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Please Be Mind – Chapter 3

Audio and PDF versions of this post will be coming soon. Sorry, it’s the end of the school semester, and things are a little hectic. Enjoy! The week passed quickly for David. Large amounts of caffeine had an effect like speeding up an audio track of his life, without the squeaky voices. Everything felt rushed [...]

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Please Be Mind – Chapter 2

Click here to listen to me reading this chapter. Click here to read the PDF version of this chapter. Where on earth was 1965? In the hot doldrums of summer, David had made many attempts to replace the activities he would have usually done with friends. He had started a job selling singing telegrams door [...]

 
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Please Be Mind: Chapter 1

This is the first chapter of my young adult novel Please Be Mind. For more information about the book, click here. This chapter comes after the Introduction, make sure to read it before starting this chapter. Click here to listen to me reading this chapter. Click here to read the PDF version of this chapter. [...]

 
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Please Be Mind: Introduction

This is the first chapter of my young adult novel Please Be Mind. For more information about the book, click here. This is the beginning of the book. Click here to listen to me reading this chapter. Click here to read the PDF version of this chapter. Do you have a best friend? Do you have [...]

 
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PODCAST: Staying Centered and Being Present

Hey guys, This isn’t the post you’ve been hoping for. It’s not the first chapter (or the introduction) of my novel. This is actually a podcast episode (the file I’ll link to, not what you’re reading) about staying centered and being present. Click the link to listen to it: (MP3 – 20.6mb – 42:54) Christian [...]

 
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My first novel “Please Be Mind” will be published here starting Wednesday

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So I wrote a Young Adult novel a little over a year ago. Well, I don’t know that you could really call it a book. Let’s call it a draft. The book was originally to be named Speech, but as the story developed it was changed to Please Be Mind. This is a title you [...]

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Real

The hardest part of writing is realizing (or accepting) that I have something to say. It’s laughable how pitiful the voice in my head is for whispering at me incessantly and, at the same time, telling me I have nothing to write. Scandalous. So, what do I have to say that others don’t, or won’t [...]

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Cyclothymia

I have recently been diagnosed with Cyclothymia disorder. It’s a type of bipolar disorder. The main differences are more rapid cycling (abrupt shifts in mood or “polarities”) and less intense swings than those with bipolar disorder. I’ll explain more as we go along, but first… Why I’m Writing This: One day a 19 year-old teenager [...]

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Prejudice

I have people in my improv class who center me. I just need to hear them speak, and I’m zeroed in. They’re black guys wearing big brown boots and cornrows, constantly blasting down the wall of racism and judgment I thought I was too conscious to have. They’re white guys wearing big jackets and jeans [...]

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